path of the ancestors, path of my relatives: facial markings

saturday was a joyful day for me. i joined my mom and my little cousin, women from my family generations back, and women from other arctic cultures in reclaiming an indigenous experience that was shut down and nearly wiped out two centuries ago by missionaries and settler society in alaska and beyond--facial marking.

i waffled for months about whether to move forward with this experience. as drawn as i felt to get my chin tattooed with beautifying lines connecting me outwardly and inwardly to my ancestors and relatives, i hesitated. my fear was tied to my ongoing struggles with identity related to my mixed heritage, skin color, and my family's displacement, our physical dislocation from our native culture as well as the colonizing force of religion and dominant white culture on our relatives still in alaska. my upbringing in rural oregon with my granny, aunties, cousins, sibling, and parents, was yup’ik in culture and values. and here in this urban place, i continue to be a part of the alaska native and lower 48 native community.

my skin is white i am mixed european too

my mother, brother, sister, cousins, nephew, have my granny's face my skin has always been my swift river to cross

each time i sculpt, i brave the current blood quantum skin color miles from birthright

in drumming and singing, i paddle toward my ancestors

with this tattoo, i face myself

i am yup'ik

on saturday i joined my ancestors in this experience of beautification, healing, connection, and other medicine. great grandma helen in bethel and granny clara and the aunties in mcgrath did not have access to this tradition of our people. i do. so i was hand-poke tattooed by my friend nahaan, for myself and for them. my experience was powerful. we drummed together, we sang, we shared stories, and we prayed to ellam yua, the spirit of the universe. my cousin sang and drummed beautifully during the tattooing--her strong voice and song stayed with me after the ceremony and throughout the entire night of sleep. i experienced healing during my tattooing. i walked a path with my ancestors and with my relatives alive today.

nahaan, is a tlingit, inupiaq and paiute man, a language teacher, dancer, artist, poet, activist, traditional story teller, and culture-bearer. i am grateful beyond words to him for his strength of character and dedication to his purpose. i have benefited from his generous spirit.

i also took my newly finished sculpture, "owl and lemming: dependent arising" to Two Raven's Studio foundry on saturday for bronze casting. i met the owners and operators, Ed Croupa and Katrina Toft--great people. i especially love Ed's public work "floating life forms" made up of 6 stylized bronze buoy balls reflecting the interdependence of the natural and the man-made world. my "owl and lemming: dependent arising" is also a work on interdependence. the concept easily marries my yup'ik understanding of the world and my vajrayana buddhist practice. it is an acknowledgement of the interdependence of all beings and honors those upon whose backs we human people ride to survive. the lemming is scaled larger than the owl to show its equal importance in their interrelationship. the traditional yup’ik hand (outstretched owl foot/tail) with the center eye signifies the cyclical emergence of all beings to this realm. if one exists, the other exists, if one ceases to exist the other ceases to exist. there is nothing independent.

i'm excited that this piece will be finished and ready to take to the santa fe indian market in santa fe this august.